Elusive Love

It is an injustice 

To harbor the belief

My heart is unbreakable 

It is treachery 

To believe 

My goodbyes 

Don’t bulge my breath 

Halfway up my throat 

I choke 

Stutter mid-sentence 

Trying to tell you

You’re the first bits of love 

I’ve felt in a long time 

I am scared 

Of the dark nights

Sleeps seduces me 

To come to bed 

But my heart 

Has a hard time supplying oxygen 

To the memories that fight for us 

And here you are 

Talking about intuition 

Still hiding behind 

Polysemous sentences 

We were always 

One dream apart 

One hope. One destiny. One kiss. 

Apart 

I just wish you had come 

With me 

Chased your intuition beside me

For once 

I was hopeful 

Disney could finally grant 

Real happily ever afters 

We were two light workers 

Spiritually connected 

Weren’t you present 

When our bodies climaxed 

From the marriage of our minds 

When you said 

You loved me 

I took it as a vow 

To run with me 

Or stay with me 

But like every light I have ever had 

You left 

Amidst the crumbling of my heart

The searching and aching of my soul

You left 

And I just wish 

You had waited 

A little 

In the storm 

With me 

I wish love wasn’t so damn elusive